Saturday, February 28, 2009

i hate jesus

hi my name is rd3x (not real name). i am born in christhion family in india. I am 30 yr old.
i hate jesus very much why? i tell u
my whole family believe in jesus very much n my neibhour also believe in jesus.
But i hate jesus. Batata hu kiyo vo khuda nahi hai ye mai jan gaya hu jab vo apne aap ko nahi bacha sakta to vo duniya ko kis dega.
Bible ek jhuthi kitab hai jo us ko padta aur manta hai vo duniya ka sabse bada murkh hai na uski bate sachi hai hogi. usme jitna bhi likha hai vo sab jhuth hai. Sirf Juth.
mere pados mai ek christhion familly rahati hai vo log bahut jesus pe vishvas karte hai lekin unke 2 ye old child ki ek aankh nikalni padi kiyoki us aankh mai cancer ho gaya tha pahle unhone khub parathna ki lekin kuch nahi hua aisa hi mere sath hua pahale mai bhi jesus pe bharosa karta tha lekin kiya hua us pe vishvas karana galat sabit hua usse mujh hamesha dhokha hi mila hai
mai apni kahani batata hu
mere dady ek sharabhi thae aur hai (christhions me sabo ke bap sharabi hote hai ya vo apni wife ko chod ke chale jate hai dusri shadi kar lete hai) mere hi nahi jitne bhi mere christhion friends thei un sab ke bap sharabi uar kababi the humare gharo mae roz ladaiya hona ek rajmarra ki bat thi kabhi mere to kabhi mere friends ke gharo mai ye aam bat hoti thi fir bhi hum roz rat ko sone se pahle jesus par vishvas karke jesus se prathna krke sote the ki humare bap thik ho jaye unki sharab chut jaye lekin aaj tak aisa ho na saka .mera ek bhai bhi hai i love my brother very much vo abhi bhi jesus pe vishvas karta hai full.
Mere jitne bhi friends thei ya un sab ke bap sharbi thei yaar fir un ki mother un ko chod ja chuki thi yaar fir kisi ki affair kisi other cast ke sath tha . ye hume bachpan mai jesus pe vishwas karne ke karan ye saza mili ki humare ma baap ache nahi thei. kashmujhe bachpan maihi pata cha jata ki yisu koi khuda nahi hai aur bible ek jhuthi kitab hai kher koi bat nahi mujhe 30 saalki umar mai topata chal gaya aage mera jivan acha jayega. ye mera vishvas hai.thik hai aage badte hai jab hum school jane lage tab vaha schoolke bacche aur teacher hum christhions kamajak udate thei vanha ke log hume nichi najaro se dekhte thei for bhi hum murkh log jesus pe vishvas katrte the sunday school jate. mere chacha ko church bare ki nokri mili hum unke sath church dulvate aur saf karte the mai aur mera bhai meri mummy khush hoti thi ki hum jesus ki seva kar rahe vo hume acha fal dega par aisa nahi ho saka hum khush hote the ki hume jesus ki seva aur church ki seva karne ka moka mila. hum log (mai aur mera bhai) khub church ki seva karte the bina kisi prlobhan ke. Mere chacha bhi bahut jiyada seva karte the tan man dhan se uska parinam ye nikla ki unhe church ki rajniti karan naukri se hata diya. Pastor ke najdiki aadmi ko vo kam mil gaya ab bbhi vo jesus pe vishvas karte hai uska natija ye hai unke koi aulad nahi hai aur vo sharb mai dub chuke hai bimar rahte hair oz chacha chachi mai jhagde hote hai ye hai jesus pe vishvas karne ka parinam. jesus pe vishvas karne se jindgi mai humesha hi nirash hi milti hai kiyoki vo god nahi hai vo kuch bhi nahi kar sakta hai mai jesus pe bhut vishvas karta ha jab mai 9th class mai tha jab mujhpe mere teacher ne unki anguthi chori hone aur mere classmate ne ek girl ko letter likhne ka jhutha aarop laga diya tab bhi mai jesus pe vishvas karta tha mai ye soch karta tha ke ye to shetan ki pariksha hai koi bat nahi aage natija ye mila ki mujhe fail kar diya aur school se nikal diya.

meri bua ek teacher hai unki posting gav mai hai mai unke sath gav chala gaya vo ek talakshuda hai unko bhi jesus pe vishvas karne ka dabd bhog rahi hai vo ek penticostal hai vo ab bhi jesus pe vishvas karti hai full.

meri mummy nurse hai unki posting bhi gav mai hai fir 11th mai unke pass chala gaya un dino mai nirasha se bhara hua tha mujhe marne ka man karta tha

ek din mai hospital kisi ko milne gaya vaha pe ek girl ne mera rasta se cross huimaine jesus se kaha kiya ye hi hai jiska mai intjar kar raha hu.

thode dino ke bad meri job usi ladki ke sath tendar base pe hospital mai lag gayi maine socha ki shayd jesus ne meri sun li. tab bhi maine kaha jo jesus karega vo hoga

ek din mai uske ghar ke yanha gaya vanha bhi maine kaha agar jesus chahega to vo dikhegi aur vo dikhi mera jesus pe aur vishvas bad gaya lekin us ke bad mai samjha vo sab ek dokha tha jo maine jesus ko khuda man kar khaya. jesus neuse mujhe nahi diya kiyoki vo de nahi sakta hai jab vo khuda hi nahi hai hai to vo kisi ko kiya de sakta hai

vanha par bhi jesus

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